3/28/23

write when you feel sad part 3 (a story of a generation)


Seth looks at a container of cat medicine.

He unscrews the plastic dropper from the container of the cat medicine.

Seth smells the cat medicine.

He inserts the plastic dropper into the container of cat medicine.

He squeezes the dropper.

Cat medicine fills the dropper.

Seth walks to his cat.

He holds the cat's mouth open.

He inserts the plastic dropper into his cat's mouth.

He squeezes the plastic dropper.

He looks at his cat.

Seth takes the dropper out of his cat's mouth.

Seth's cat makes a sound.

He screws the plastic dropper into the container of cat medicine.

He puts the container of cat medicine in a drawer.

Seth walks to his bedroom.

He plays the album Steady Diet of Nothing by Fugazi.

He opens a can of organic vegetable soup.

He puts the soup into a pot.

He turns the stove on.

Seth looks at the pot.

Seth pours orange juice into a glass.

Seth drinks the orange juice.

He walks to the window.

He looks at the park across the street. 

Seth thinks "I'm glad don't have work tomorrow."

He thinks "I haven't accomplished anything."

He thinks "I'm still young though."

It's nine p.m.

It is warm.

Seth looks at the soup.

He tastes the soup.

He turns the stove off.

He pours the soup into a bowl.

He takes the bowl to the kitchen table.

Seth eats the soup.

He thinks "This is salty."

He walks to his bedroom.

Seth takes his contact lenses out.

He lies on his bed.

Seth thinks "I want there to be a girl. I want to live with a girl. We would make food together and then we would eat food together. We would do dishes. I would do the dishes and she would put things away. We'd lie in bed."

The bedside light is on.

Seth looks at his alarm clock.

It's three a.m.

Seth is wearing jeans and socks.

Seth walks into the living room.

The lights are on.

The TV is on.

The TV shows the DVD player's screensaver. 

Seth's cat is lying on the floor.

Seth walks to the couch.

He sits on the couch.

Seth touches his cat.

He says "You dingus."

He pets his cat.

He smacks his cat's ass.

Seth's cat leaves.

Seth lies on the couch.

He unbuttons his jeans.

He thinks "I want to like the way someone looks and to like other things about them a lot and have it be mutual and not have anything bad happen right away."

Seth's cat makes a sound.



3/15/23

write when you feel sad part 2 (a story of a generation)


Tony takes a shower.

Tony brushes his teeth.

He thinks "I'm healthy."

He thinks "Should I have a bidet? At my parents' house, they have a bidet. They have so much stuff. I should have more stuff. At some point."

He looks at himself in the mirror. 

He thinks "I should shave."

He walks into his bedroom. 

He puts clothes on.

He walks to the kitchen.

His girlfriend's cat is on top of the refrigerator. 

Tony says "Come on, baby."

He picks up his girlfriend's cat.

Tony's girlfriend's cat scratches Tony's hand.

Tony walks into his bedroom.

He closes the door. 

Tony puts down the cat.

The cat jumps on Tony's bed.

The cat is just there.

Tony leaves the bedroom.

He closes the door behind him.

He thinks "Lazy ass cat."

He walks to the kitchen.

He washes dishes. 

He thinks "I'm always happy when I get drunk and don't fuck things up too bad. I always think, 'That was dumb. I'm fine.'"

Tony lies on the couch.

He stands up.

He picks up a DVD.

The DVD is Old Boy.

Tony turns on the DVD player.

He puts Old Boy into the DVD player.

Tony turns on the TV.

He presses play.

Tony lies on the couch.

He thinks "I should stop eating wheat maybe."

Tony stands up. 

He walks to the refrigerator. 

He opens the refrigerator.

He looks at a six-pack of bottles of Stella Artois.

There are five bottles of Stella Artois.

Tony picks up a bottle of Stella Artois.

Tony closes the refrigerator. 

Tony walks to the couch.

Tony sits on the couch. 

He drinks Stella Artois.

He watches Old Boy.

He drinks Stella Artois.

Tony turns off the TV.

He picks up the book Breakfast of Champions by Kurt Vonnegut. 

He drinks Stella Artois.

He looks at his cell phone.

It's ten p.m.

Tony walks to the refrigerator. 

He opens the refrigerator. 

He picks up a bottle of Stella Artois.

He closes the refrigerator. 

He walks to his bedroom.

He looks at his cat.

He sits near his laptop computer.

Tony opens youtube.

He plays the song "Red and Blue Jeans" by The Promise Ring.

He plays the song "(Strawberry Ann) Switzerland" by Braid.

Tony thinks "If I get Chinese food I'll feel okay for as long as it takes to eat the Chinese food. If I get twice as much Chinese food I'll feel okay for twice as long."

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3/8/23

write when you feel sad (a story about a generation)


Rusty is in his parents' house. 

He is in the living room. 

There are yarn cobwebs hanging from the ceiling. 

There are plastic spiders in the yarn cobwebs. 

Rusty's parents wear costumes. 

Rusty's parents' friends wear costumes.

Rusty wears a costume.

He sits on the couch.

He eats candy.

He drinks soda.

Rusty eats hotdogs.

Rusty stands up.

There is mustard on Rusty's costume.

He looks at his socks.

There is mustard on Rusty's left sock.

Rusty thinks "I feel okay."

Years later, Rusty is in an arcade.

Rusty plays Silent Scope.

Rusty thinks "Yeah. I'm going to die."

Rusty's character dies.

Rusty walks out of the arcade.

He walks into a record store. 

Rusty looks at the CD Neon Ballroom by Silverchair.

He thinks "I don't know if I should buy this."

Rusty walks out of the record store.

It's Christmas Eve. 

The album Enema of the State by Blink 182 is playing.

Rusty is sitting on a couch.

Jessica is sitting on the couch.

Rusty's heart is beating.

Rusty and Jessica talk.

Rusty thinks "It's easy to talk to Jessica."

He looks at Jessica.

Jessica leaves.

Rusty is sitting on the couch.

The movie Austin Powers in Goldmember is playing on mute.

Rusty looks at Austin Powers in Goldmember.

Rusty thinks "Should I smoke pot?"

It's Christmas.

Rusty is in his parents' house.

He is in the living room.

Rusty is sitting on a couch.

His parents are there. 

His grandparents are there.

His aunt and uncle are there.

HIs other uncle is there.

Rusty picks up a wrapped package. 

He opens the package. 

The package contains a Sub Pop label sampler CD.

Rusty says "Thank you."

He looks at his aunt and uncle.

Rusty's aunt smiles.

Everyone talks.

Rusty's grandparents leave.

Rusty's aunt and uncle leave.

Rusty's other uncle leaves.

Rusty's parents walk into their bedroom.

Rusty walks to his bedroom.

He puts the Sub Pop label sampler CD into his computer.

He listens to the Sub Pop label sampler CD.

He thinks "I like the song 'Things I Don't Remember' by Ugly Casanova, 'Out of the Races and Onto the Tracks' by The Rapture, 'Bandages' by Hot Hot Heat, and 'Finish Line' by Rosie Thomas."

Rusty makes a playlist of those four songs.

He lies on his bed.

He sits up in his bed.

He listens to the playlist.

He looks out the window.

Rain is falling.

It's warm.


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